Not Meant To Be

I promised myself I wouldn't fall

For you when we started to talk

I said, "Don't run yourself into love

When you know you're supposed to walk."

I didn't plan on getting attached

Because I've never done such a thing

I thought it would be safe to hang with you

It would only be a fling

But you had to make me laugh and smile

With that so called perfect charm

I was giggly and always effervescent

I didn't think it would cause me harm

So I kept hanging out with you all the time

And watched the days go by

I hadn't a clue that the relationship we had

Would end up making me cry

Every time things were going well

There came another complication

There was nothing we could do to avoid it

It was our neglected obligation

No way for us to be together

The present obstacles made it unfair

I turned to God and asked, "Why me?"

Every night in my tearful prayers

We couldn't even hang out like we used to

On the back of your tailgate

No laughing or making inside jokes between us

No staying out real late

The memories we shared are beginning to fade

And my wide grin is now a frown

I wish I could change what's happening

And turn everything around

It's weird because I've never felt this way

About any other guy

I can't believe I fell for you

Why did I even try?

I believe that everything happens for a reason

I guess we're not meant to be

I just hate having to go through this pain

I just want to be happy…