Let Go

You don’t know why I hide behind

These ironclad-like walls

Shielded by my disposition

Roaming the empty halls

I trained myself to keep distance

From those who got too close

Protect myself from suffering

From those who loved me most

My leather skin had served me well

Blocking all temptation

My guard then fell but all I felt

Was intimidation

You bring hope, bliss, and beginning

I’ve never felt this way

You provide a different path

That makes me not afraid

No more should I hide from taking risks

Or be scared to live off faith

To jump without having control

To give in to love’s cliché

Save my judgment and revolt

There’s nothing I have to prove

I couldn’t want anything more

Than to only be with you

Absent

Remember those times from long ago
When we used to play outside
A moment in time we thought was slow
Now dashes and zooms right by

Those days when dirt stuck under our nails
And we had nowhere to be
Instead of waiting for a signal that fails
We waited for immortality

Our silence was once filled with laughter
Now replaced by a ringtone
Together we knew what we were after
But now I just stand alone

It used to be fun watching our shows
When you were always around
Now I witness our bond decompose
Your head that is constantly down

A lightning bug used to keep you perplexed
By its magic animation
Now it's excitement from a lit up text
That stole your imagination

Our eyes once outlined each fickle cloud
While we laid in mounds of grass
I wish I'd known time only allowed
An instant for a memory to last

The world we know is an ongoing game
I miss you sitting next to me
But things will never be the same
Since the introduction of technology

I refuse to cry over you tonight

All it takes is one text from you
I change my plans even though we're through
I make the drive just to see your face
Just one more kiss to make my heart race

Why do I make the effort to see you
When it just hurts worse every time I leave you
I keep telling myself that I'll be alright
Dammit I refuse to cry over you tonight

I fall right back into what we had
All the memories, good and bad
I hate that loving you is so damn easy
I'm addicted to every way you tease me

Why do I make the effort to see you
When it just hurts worse every time I leave you
I keep telling myself that I'll be alright
Dammit, I refuse to cry over you tonight

Yet I keep on putting myself through pain
Knowing that I have nothing to gain
It's time to move on and leave you behind
I can't keep pushing stop and rewind

No more will I make the effort to see you
I'm finally letting go this time I leave you
I know that life goes on and I'll be alright
I'm done crying over you, I love you, goodnight