Let Go

You don’t know why I hide behind

These ironclad-like walls

Shielded by my disposition

Roaming the empty halls

I trained myself to keep distance

From those who got too close

Protect myself from suffering

From those who loved me most

My leather skin had served me well

Blocking all temptation

My guard then fell but all I felt

Was intimidation

You bring hope, bliss, and beginning

I’ve never felt this way

You provide a different path

That makes me not afraid

No more should I hide from taking risks

Or be scared to live off faith

To jump without having control

To give in to love’s cliché

Save my judgment and revolt

There’s nothing I have to prove

I couldn’t want anything more

Than to only be with you

Absent

Remember those times from long ago
When we used to play outside
A moment in time we thought was slow
Now dashes and zooms right by

Those days when dirt stuck under our nails
And we had nowhere to be
Instead of waiting for a signal that fails
We waited for immortality

Our silence was once filled with laughter
Now replaced by a ringtone
Together we knew what we were after
But now I just stand alone

It used to be fun watching our shows
When you were always around
Now I witness our bond decompose
Your head that is constantly down

A lightning bug used to keep you perplexed
By its magic animation
Now it's excitement from a lit up text
That stole your imagination

Our eyes once outlined each fickle cloud
While we laid in mounds of grass
I wish I'd known time only allowed
An instant for a memory to last

The world we know is an ongoing game
I miss you sitting next to me
But things will never be the same
Since the introduction of technology

I refuse to cry over you tonight

All it takes is one text from you
I change my plans even though we're through
I make the drive just to see your face
Just one more kiss to make my heart race

Why do I make the effort to see you
When it just hurts worse every time I leave you
I keep telling myself that I'll be alright
Dammit I refuse to cry over you tonight

I fall right back into what we had
All the memories, good and bad
I hate that loving you is so damn easy
I'm addicted to every way you tease me

Why do I make the effort to see you
When it just hurts worse every time I leave you
I keep telling myself that I'll be alright
Dammit, I refuse to cry over you tonight

Yet I keep on putting myself through pain
Knowing that I have nothing to gain
It's time to move on and leave you behind
I can't keep pushing stop and rewind

No more will I make the effort to see you
I'm finally letting go this time I leave you
I know that life goes on and I'll be alright
I'm done crying over you, I love you, goodnight

Age

The difference in maturity

Foreshadowed fixed obscurity

But even knowing, I still leapt

Hoping that nature would accept

You wrote a poem just for me

Beginning “waves crash violently

Against the rocks” you said then frowned

Ending with “shattering is the sound”

You saw our feelings fade away

Because of doubt and jealousy

But I still walked that briar path

This is my rebuttal, my only wrath

My heart was exposed for you to hold

Out in the open, bare and cold

You breathed on it to make it warm

But keep your distance, it’s ripped and torn

You’re tentative to move in close

But resistance made it decompose

Your heart was young and plump and red

While mine was gray with marks of tread

I hate that you were driven by lust

An unsure life filled with mistrust

I was ready but no longer waiting

I can’t just sit here while you’re debating

You wanted a life, no strings attached

Our hearts were visibly mismatched

I wanted what you could not provide

I offered my heart, but you denied

So as “waves crash against the rocks”

I’ll put my heart back in its box

And this god damn scab I have to peel

In order for my heart to finally heal

I Hate

I hate the way you look at her

When she walks right past you

I get the back of your polo shirt

She gets the frontal view

I hate the way you gel your hair

With your damn curly Q’s

The way your silky brown locks fall

Makes my heart trip and bruise

I hate your cold swimming pool eyes

And every time you laugh

Your tiny dimples hold your smile

And make my spine collapse

I hate your Burberry cologne

That lingers when you leave

My eyes stay closed with thoughts of you

And makes me weak in the knees

I hate it when you touch my back

When you walk behind me

The way you dance when you’re cooking

And hum while you eat

I hate it when you talk about her

Your love for her you pour

I don’t see how you don’t realize

That I love you more

Twisted

There is nothing to say, now all is done,

Only one last kiss from your unfaithful lips

My heart like a wringing sponge

Puppy....

Puppy are you teething

On my brand new boots you’re breathing?

Breath that bears a foul odor, you

With your shedding coat and slobber, why you?

Ah! This is the second time

That you’ve committed this spiteful crime

By and by, no knowledge of why

I yell at you until you cry

And yet you still sneak around all sly

Now no matter if you nibble

I kindly kiss your nose of Kibble

Your big brown eyes that beg for love

How could I have yelled, unheard of!

It is what every puppy goes through

It is an honor it’s my boots you chew